Discovering my Forty-Two

I'll be your lightning rod of hate!

Oct 19


im actually really afraid that no one will fall in love with me

(via eselgee)

Oct 18

Being an unwilling introvert is kind of like trying to drive across an oil slick with flat tires; no matter how hard you try to drive to your destination, you always go in the wrong direction.

Oct 14

I fully recognize that much of the pick-up artist community is full of shit.

I also am beginning to realize that unless I ask for their help, I’m going to keep living alone until my deathbed or a rope around my neck.

Oct 12

Watching kissing couples walk by my apartment window reminds me of why I sometimes relate to Elliot Rodger.

Isn’t it fucking dumb to relate to a brat?

Sometimes it’s not fair. 

How is one supposed to be reasonably emotional after being taught that saving face is more important than expressing?

I know I should cry but I’m scared of even fucking that up.

Oct 11


Just to let you feel the intensity…the throb…the rigidity. That’s right…to just let you absorb all that you’ve become to me and for me.

I want so badly it hurts my heart

(via eselgee)

Crying about something I can’t have

Crying about something I can’t have

(via eselgee)

Oct 6

Discovered my orchestra job gets me $30 nights at the Hilton. 

Oct 4
“Competitions are for horses, not artists.” Bela Bartok

I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy

because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless

and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that.

Robin Williams (via skateeofmind)

This is literally what my friend started out telling me about myself the other day in the car before my past got brought up.

(via eselgee)

(via eselgee)

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