Discovering my Forty-Two

I'll be your lightning rod of hate!

Apr 16

rubyvroom:

and-umar:

I hate hate hate it when women in video games make sexual noises when they get hit or die in suggestive positions

like women can’t even die in a way that doesn’t exist to turn men on

how dare you sexualise female pain

Arkham City did this with Catwoman a lot, it was so so gross.

So don’t get hit and/or die? 

(via alayshalifts)


Apr 15

Maybe it’s because the gym at my university is on the Frat/Sorority street, that everyday I show up in the weight room there’s always at least one person I’m tempted to walk up to and comment, “Those are the smallest calves I’ve ever seen.”


Apr 13

My next shrink appointment is Wednesday, but my parents are encouraging me to cancel, and instead meditate. They said it’s cheaper, and more effective.

I’m going to the shrink because I’m beginning to have panic attacks when I’m in a social space of more than two people. When I went to my old Crossfit gym to say hi I left 30 minutes later feeling like I was going to have a heart attack. I cry on Friday and Saturday nights because the neighbor above me is making love. I am frustrated almost every day that my inability to handle alcohol leaves me socially incompatible unacceptable as a person. Now that’s it’s springtime, I walk with my head to the ground so that I don’t creep on hot girls wearing shorts. Every now and then I toy with the idea of jumping off a roof and making everyone around me regret that they took me for granted.

How the fuck is meditation going to change my looks for the better, or turn me into the worshipped socially powerful frat boy that I want to be?

Writing isn’t therapeutic anymore.


Apr 10
accio-the-booty:

Hillary isn’t just the best woman for the job, she’s the best candidate. 

I’m ready for a candidate that can effectively play the political ballgame regardless of gender, age race, or species. #Whoever2016.

accio-the-booty:

Hillary isn’t just the best woman for the job, she’s the best candidate. 

I’m ready for a candidate that can effectively play the political ballgame regardless of gender, age race, or species. #Whoever2016.


Apr 7

Before time ran out with the shrink, I managed to let drip a fragment of the pile of rot that has been collecting in my head, “I feel as if I have been, currently am, and will always be taken for granted.” 

What I didn’t tell him, though I don’t find it alarming, is that I occasionally toy with the hypothetical concept of people reacting to my sudden death, and their regret for never taking my existence seriously.

Of course my mother will take me seriously, except when it comes to loneliness. The reply I always get is, “Maybe you’re not friend material” or “Friendship and relationships are distractions when you should be doing something useful.” She’s a remarkable person and I love her dearly, but she doesn’t get it. She doesn’t take that part of me seriously, and that part has evolved to my general bleak outlook on living.


culture-of-choice:

pro-choice-or-no-voice:

Abortion statistics and facts! All information, charts and bar graphs are sourced above! A few sources accidentally left out: [x] [x] - Paige

Unbelievably important.

Use this to combat pro-life “statistics” (aka, statistics pulled out of a random donkey’s hiney).

Pro-life and pro-choice fact. Abortion involves killing. One party will find something terribly wrong with that prospect, another party may believe that there is nothing to kill.

I just hope that those who opt to abort do so out of absolute necessity and not for convenience.

(via pickledradish)


Apr 6

Today a skinny guy at the squat rack was squatting in a way that almost resembled a squat jump. Props that you’re skinny and squatting / squat jumping 245, but please don’t hurt yourself, and please don’t grunt out a loud “FUCK” for every rep.


Apr 5

Panic attacks are coming back, hopefully I don’t have nightmares again.


23 years young and still trying.

23 years young and still trying.


If I ever find myself around people, I seem to have a talent of being around people who habitually pull the rug under my feet, most frequently by changing meeting dates without telling me. What part of date and time do you not get? You fucking show up at the time we agree to.


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