Four day road trip to figure out where I went wrong as Aspen.
I'll be your lightning rod of hate!
Is so irrational that
Pretty girls scare me
what I want most in this world
yet my greatest fear. Maybe my most coherent description
Experienceproject may be a more appropriate place for the mess that’s been stinking inside me.
I’m half tempted to shut this space down, I’ve stopped contributing anything worth contributing for a couple years now. I really don’t know. I’m pretty numb again anytime I’m awake.
It’s taboo to admit that you’re lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven’t left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. Ha ha, funny. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you’re not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are.
A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn’t transition well to adult life, that you’d fall right through the cracks. And look at you now. La di da, it’s happening. Ryan O’Connell